The Grief We Carry, The Love We Keep - Shanda McManus, MD

<div class="OutlineElement Ltr SCXW261693233 BCX0"> When physician and writer <a href="https://www.shandamcmanus.com/about" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">Sh</a><a href= "https://www.shandamcmanus.com/about" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">a</a><a href= "https://www.shandamcmanus.com/about" target="_blank" rel= "noopener">nda McManus</a> was fourteen, her mother died after living with ovarian cancer. Three years later, her grandmother - the person who became home after that loss - was killed by a drunk driver. Then, while Shanda was in medical school, her younger brother Monir was murdered on Christmas Eve. </div> <div class="OutlineElement Ltr SCXW261693233 BCX0"> For years, surviving meant staying busy. Planning funerals. Managing paperwork. Pushing forward. The grief itself was boxed up, held in place by what Shanda describes as an emotional tourniquet. It kept her moving, but it also kept her separated from memories of her mother, grandmother, and brother - and even from parts of herself. </div> <div class="OutlineElement Ltr SCXW261693233 BCX0"> In this conversation, Jana and Shanda explore what finally made it possible to take off the tourniquet. They talk about how writing became a gentle way back into grief and how reconnecting with that grief also helped Shanda reconnect with the people who had died. </div> <div class="OutlineElement Ltr SCXW261693233 BCX0"> Together they also explore the larger forces that shape grief: the myth of the "strong Black woman," the culture of medicine that rewards emotional restraint, the isolation that follows homicide loss, and the ways race, class, and stigma influence whose grief is witnessed and whose is questioned. </div> <div class="OutlineElement Ltr SCXW261693233 BCX0"> This episode considers what can happen when we stop asking grief to disappear and instead start tending to it - creating space for tears, memories, stories, and relationships that continue long after someone dies. </div> <div class="OutlineElement Ltr SCXW261693233 BCX0"> In this episode, we discuss: <ul> <li>Growing up in North Philadelphia and the lasting influence of Shanda's mother, grandmother, and younger brother.</li> <li>Becoming the family caretaker after her mother's death at fourteen. </li> <li>How repeated losses led to decades of suppressing grief in order to survive. </li> <li>Why writing <a href= "https://www.shandamcmanus.com/#brother-epistles" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Brother Epistles</a> became a pathway back to memory, relationship, and self. </li> <li>The unique challenges of grieving after homicide and the stigma that often accompanies violent loss. </li> <li>How racism, gender expectations, and medical culture can leave little room for grief. </li> <li>What it means to tend grief rather than trying to finish it. </li> <li>Finding permission to speak about the people who died as an everyday grief practice. </li> </ul> Connect with Shanda McManus, MD <a href= "https://www.shandamcmanus.com/">https://www.shandamcmanus.com/</a> <a href="https://www.instagram.com/shandaMDwrites" target="_blank" rel="noopener">@shandaMDwrites</a> <a href="https://shandamcmanusmd.substack.com/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Weatherproof Substack</a> Learn more about Dougy Center's grief education & training offerings: <a href="https://www.dougy.org/professionals-trainings" target="_blank" rel= "noreferrer noopener">https://www.dougy.org/professionals-trainings</a> </div>

The Grief We Carry, The Love We Keep - Shanda McManus, MD

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